things we can't hide.

I don't love you because i need you, but need you because i love you.

can you understand that? Can you take it into consideration that i'm head over heels for you?

Behind the scenes of a teenager.

" 11:11, I wished you needed me as much as i need you."

So everyone manages to pull of a blurry image; to be a happy chappy person on the outside, but when the image becomes clearer, you see problems.. issues. You see a clearer and more defined picture of that person using a smile as a disguised on the outside, to cover up what their really hiding on the inside. The truth is.. deep down we have been murdered by that somebody, and soon instead of getting hurt physically, everything seems to aim emotionally. The hurt seems to build up everytime you hear their name, or simply see something that is just so like them. The pain is truely unbearable and to be honest.. no superman can do anything to help you. You lose trust, You lose hope and slowly.. you begin to quit everything you once were so determined to find. It hurts. It rips you apart.

But even if that ripped you to pieces,

no matter if they stabbed you in the heart;

you'd do absolutely anything to spend just that one moment with them again.

Because your mind will be making excuses,

"atleast you can have that one last memory of him"

but it will never end. those excuses, those bits of hope will keep coming.

He makes you feel secure, and though people may think your strong

they may think your determined, heartless even;

you cannot lie to yourself, because you know deep down

you not only want him.. but need him.

&&

you'd do anything for him.. be anything for him.

It's then you realise.. that though you can create an illusion that he

no longer exist in your head, you still need him.

Your heart makes decisions, but your mind makes excuses

At the end of it all, you have to realise that even if they all may

call you stupid or a fool for love, you can go to sleep soundly

because the one you love, the one you can absolutely be devoted to,

knows how much he means to you and that you did this for you, and nobody else.

You can go to sleep knowing you tried.